march 27th, 2011

hey there again! :D
i wanna share some photos when my lovely boyfie came to my town :D
it located in tunjungan plaza surabaya.
here we go..... \(^o^)/

foodcourt tunjungan plaza

 

taken by my boyfie

(rooftop tunjungan plaza)

taken by me

(rooftop tunjungan plaza)

self timer + tripod from perfume bottle

(rooftop tunjungan plaza)

i think that"s enough. i will post another photos later.
so many photos that we took. don't know why.. we were overconfidence maybe, haha.. :p
See ya!
muach :*

unfinished old story

this is my story. i wrote it on my phone and never been posted in my facebook account like i wanted before.
this was how i could know him....


Pheww..
Ga kerasa banget banget, hari ini uda setahun aku kenal sama dia.. Thank God :D
He has been be my freakin' awesome lifemate..
Semua berawal dari tempat ini, dari social-network ini, ya dari akun facebook ku :)
Let me remembering that time.. ;)

Awalnya, aku sama sekali gatau sama cowok yg namanya Ezra Savero Salahudin itu yg mana..
Maklum aku ga pernah peduli sm orang yg ga aku kenal..
Sampe akhirnya, suatu hari aku lagi online, dan aku ngeliat ada yg masang status “Nothing Lasts Forever”..
Aku yg emang suka banget sama musik, refleks langsung tau itu salah satu lagunya Maroon5. Otomatis, langsung aku komen lah itu status.. “Maroon5 - Nothing Lasts Forever”
Eh trus dia komen lagi.. Sampe akhirnya kita ngobrol, becanda di status sampe statusnya full komen, haha..
Kita ga komen"an di satu status aja.. Ada 2 klo ga 3 status.. Jd rada bgng yaa baca notifnya, wkwkwk
Inget banget deh itu kita komen"an pas di LC-kodam, sama" duduk di tribun, cuma dia ada di bagian atas, aku yg di bawah sm anak"..
Sampe dia bilang gini “duduk atas bawah aja pake komen"an” hihi.. Ada" aja :p
Gitu aku pergi dari situ, kok dia nyadar, sampe di tanyain.. Aku mikirnya ini cowo perhatian amat, haha.. Ketemuan aja belom..-_-"
Gara" komen statusnya uda kebanyakan, kita lanjut ngewall.. Becanda" ga penting gt, haha..
Kita sm" sepakat klo kita kudu trmakasih sm Maroon5 krna gara" lagu mereka, kita jd bs kenal, hihi :p
Sempet sih,


haha.. i was too lazy to continue those story.
let it be my own past. my own memories. im not gonna share the entire story to you ;p

words that never be said

i made it for Ezra. long time before we broke up. and i do not sent it yet. never...


Maybe it's true that I can not live without you
You are my shining star when I'm in the darkness
You are my pillow when I need a place to cry
You are the one who I can not leave behind
Without you, my life is so empty
Like morning without the sun, like a night without the stars
I always try to give everything you want, I give my bests to make you happy, just to see you smile
Sometimes, I feel that you are so cruel to me, you can not understand me
But deep inside, I need you
I really need your love that's why I have a thought like that

i'm really really grateful for found this man :)

time runs so fast. many things come and go away. so do my life.
after my heart broke by my ex, i know that i've learned many things. i must let go the things that not belong to me. i've learned how to be more patient, pushed my ego for people that i love, and i've been more careful with words that i use.

day by day, i become more closer with my only one, my cutest clown, my little angel, my hero, the voice from heaven, my world, my everything, IRWAN WISMOYO
he always supports me everyday. made my day brighter. he taught me how to be strong. we talked on the phone almost everyday, countless hours. and it became my new habit. he was my vitamin, my spirit, and will always be. hell yeah, i was addicted to him :)
i need him everyday. that made me very depend on him. and i couldn't run from this feeling. *sigh*
i couldn't escape. it could not be denied. i felt in love with ian.

until that day came.....
January 5th, 2011
as usual, if i woke up in the middle of night, i texted ian immediately. but that day there was no answer. i thought that he was sleeping because he got tired after had some fun with his friends in the night before.
and when sun came up, he still didn't text me back. it almost 12 hours from his last message. i tried to text him again but my message not delivered. i waited for awhile. then i called him but his phone inactive. i still didn't have any thought of it. maybe he forgot to charge his phone because of tired. about 9.30 o'clock, my phone rang, it was from the provider, informed me that his phone already turned on. i was very happy, i texted him. not too long, my sister told me that there was my friend in front of my home. she didn't know who he was. so i walked out, opened the fence, and then i realized, i was surprised that HE CAME TO MY HOUSE, HE WAS HERE!! HE WAS STANDING IN FRONT OF ME! OH MY... OH MY...
i was speechless. i couldn't believe that he did it for me! Ya Allah..... :"D  He was standing there with his pretty big smile. i was sooooo happy. my hands were shaking. my face turned red. this was crazy! aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

btw, you guys can read more about my precious moments with him here
enjoy it! :D

and here are some of our photos....

day 1 : at surabaya town square

day 2 : at nili's home

 

 day 2 : at onix photobox

day 3 : at gramedia expo

day 6 : at pizza hut darmo

day 7 : at my home

ian with my brother, farel

me, ian, and farel

day 6 : at dunkin donuts plaza surabaya

this was not the end. it's just began

hello, my e-diary :)
hell yeah, im gonna write again like i used to be ;)
sorry if i haven't wrote again since a year ago. you know, i was busy with those suck things, studying-exam-homework-studying-exam-studying-studying-studying.... it made me feel like i wanna die that time. but everything was always worth it. :)
finally, i accepted in Airlangga University. alhamdulillah.. :D

umm okay, lets skip that part.

i wanna tell you about my love sto(uck)ry. its gonna be a long long story, haha..
hmmm.. well, i broke up with my boyfriend named Ezra in 11st December 2010. i didn't know what was on his mind until he decided to let me go. you know that i loved him so much, i always tried to understand him. but why did he chose to let me go? why??
i couldn't stand with his reason. he told me that why he should hold on me while his parents couldn't do the same? i was shocked, speechless. that sounds funny, eh?
after all we've been through, he just left me without any chance to make it better. and also, with those fucking way.
i though, that was his parents' problem, we could do better, we didn't need to be like them. but i didn't want to push him. i didn't want to thrust this love. so i fulfilled what he wanted me to. i felt so terrible. it hurts me like hell. i didn't want to, but i had to. i had to leave him, let him through this world. alone.

after talked with Ezra by phone, i called my best, mas ian. with him, i can share everything without shyness. first thing i did when i called him was crying! i still could say much words. he waited me til i stopped crying and asked me to tell him how was the story. i told him everything, everything that i felt. i still cried when he was trying to calm me down. i just couldn't believe this happened to me. i couldn't face the truth that Ezra broke me up. i was crying all day long.

and... this is my foolish face. kinda stupid, ha-ha..

 

PS : mas ian asked me to take some picture of me with my node eyes. gezzzz....  haha :p

mas ian tried to cheer me up. he gave me an advice, then he told me a silly jokes. we laughed together. and i felt better :)

but what shocked me was Ezra didn't need me, anymore. 2 days after we broke up, he disappeared! we didn't make a call about 3 days. and he seemed happy without me, like nothing happened. what worse was he didn't try to call me. oh my.... it SUCKS!!
my heart fell into pieces. it feels like i couldn't do anything without him in my world. but he didn't seem to notice me. i got the point, so i realized that i really really should to MOVE ON!
i started to let him go. i tried to understand why he chose those way. that would not take a long time. and i knew I CAN....... :)